Who's responsible to keep me safe and sound?

[Korykay]

I hit my head three plus weeks ago by tripping over my blow dryer cord in my bathroom. My hands were busy putting scrunchy in and all my weight was caught by the corner of a solid oak door. Immediatly I grew a golf ball size bump on my right frontal lobe above my temple. My husband gave me ice but did not think I needed to go to E.R. due to the fact I did not pass out, remembered pretty much everything and our son plays hockey, had concussions, and I showed no signs of one. I asked several times that I still wanted to go get checked out and even our 13 year old daughter felt I needed to be seen and taken because I asked as well as her concern also. I told him because its 1:30 am(we were watching movie) and he may have been tired, I wanted to call an ambulance but he would not allow. Our daughter asked him and he said "NO,(don't even, she's fine). Half our later, swelling started to go down and I eventually fell asleep. Two days later I started throwing up a little, got head aches and asked for him to take me to our Family Dr. He responed with, "Ill see if I can find you Grant it, 23 years married, both came from upper class family and only difference was; I was highly educated, finished my B.A. & masters at an all girls ivy league college and fact that my mom was a psychologist. He was not raised to further his education past Associates degree degree due to his need at family business. Bottom line, he is obsessed with money and possesion with no feelings for other person, even me. Me on the other had could live in a tent and be happy as long as I had a book to educate myself. (I just found out this week that only my name is on a 300 thousand dollar debt. as of Sept, 31st this year. Another story and got all paper work and transfers with my name on since 1989 till Sept. 31st.) When I was very sick with depression and having panic attacks for three years he never helped. All of this was due to arguing, controlling, demanding and his boistrious mouth towards me and our three children whoi are now all teenagers. My mom would tell him "she is your responsibility, she's your wife". He argued in front of me " No she's yours, your daughter" back and forth till my mo walked away. I still see a therapist monthly to work on communicating with him. i.e. tryed leaving 8 years ago but his attorney brought up my anxiety disorder and depression leaving me without my children, in a huge home, getting 400 dollars a month. He always wins. Money can by everything. (All of this leads up to today and needed for openion.) Today, I have been living with my mom. Out of desperation I had to leave because I was ready to sign into psych ward. My concussion(Dr. diagnosis)along with psychological and emotional damage from him not taking me to er that night till last week when he continues to tell me its all in my head; everything i can't do anymore. I'm afraid I fought too long too hard and when I hit my head it put me over. I cannot focus anymore since I hit my head, im hyper sensive to light and sound, forgetfull (took me three hrs. to type this consistently)very tired, extrememly confused all the time and think I would be better off living alone so I won't be a burden to anyone or disrupt their life anymore. Yes, Im very sad,scared and need help getting my answers met. The fact that Im living with my mother now to stay alive and my therapist calling every three days to ck on me. I use to throw up and shake(after hitting my head) I wore ear plugsfor the last three months when he was home because his voice scared me and I would loose complete control of myself everytime my husbnd was around Wednesday. QUESTION: Is my spouses responsabe to take care of me financially, mentally etc or my own even if im unable to make clear choices now? I know I connot be home now its too overwhelming and we cannot agree on anything at all. Prior to, I could multi task and run on five hours a day sleep. What do I tell my mom now that I know for now I need to be here? I constantly am thinking that all this time im just letting the family down, i shouldn't be here(guilt,shame,blame). This time though I get stuck on a thought and it repeats in my mind until I get an answer or solve the problem. I felt a little like this maybe once but 10% of what I am now. What do I do to protect myself? How do I get my answers met? Can I hold him accontable for me becoming this bad and/ or not taking me to ER at that night at my request? Is this a combination of past trauma before accident and hitting my head? If so how do I prove him accountable? I don't trust him anymore and feel neglect around him.